"Optimistic Gloom" "Life After Life"

As I assemble and ponder my life,

My childhood and family strife,

The hurt and separation from my future ex-wife,

The sadness and pain without my child,

Continuous battle to gain access not mild,

Difficulties of my own family surfaces,

The loss of loved ones seems merciless,

Friends impending fateful illnesses,

Daily work stresses and disappointment,

Unnecessary human intrusions, not enjoyment,

 Rushing around to make other's pleased,

Forgetting myself, my own life needs had ceased,

My beautiful friends and loves left behind,

Incredible creation around us, have I become blind,

As negativity of the mind clears and concludes,

Optimism of all living existence, and actuality,

Depression and sadness disappears to face reality,

My life has changed, and a new life begins,

My contentment overcomes me, new wings,

Bygone has left me, merely thoughts of a learnt past,

Not all bad but worthy too, this will make last,

Special moments, and new love, a novel to make,

My loved ones, daughter, family and friends

Forgive for my gloom, it was a mistake.