Other Side of the Sun

As life goes on I try my best... But I'm obsessed with decisions... Because I'm indecisive with choices..
.that I make and I take on..
ignoring old voices of those long a time ago stories...
.listening to bad sources.
deemed reliable for choices I never made.... And there I stood...
The people I couldn't save...
She made everything change... In a instant ..I was smarter..but those I'm apart from... I never wanted to lose... But we all were abused and worn...
Eating nothing but peas and corn...
Laughing at the small things....
Unknowingly losing the ones we love to an other world...a place we've never known....a place we all shall go..in the end....
I guess it will depend.. On what you've done.. On the other side of the sun.