with out you

without u
911 ,emergency ,help ,to whom who has care,concern this is a plee, for what is yerned, with no one to run to ,I fall hard and fast ,into this emotional coma ,this prolonged state of sexual unconsciousness ,from lack of stimuli ,in a reflection ,my eyes exemplify ,the facade of joy, doing my best to mimic happiness ,or imprsonate glee ,for true feeling must stay masked, thinking not of reality ,for there I am beast, with no beauty ,this truth has creased my face ,with salty water deposit trails, speeding times wear and tear ,in my solitary environment of communication less days , my heart rumbles as loud as earth quake ,but only can be heard by It's listener ,It's slight if any acknowledgement , so I pace or wander my keyless cage , restricted from all male activities , left entertaining myself ,till theirs no entertainment, here I am the tormented, for every morning I rise , to find no 1 by my side ,touch starved, kiss thirsting , flesh craving, tear dried eyes bear no fluid, sore knees can no longer bend ,from prayers that can't be answered ,my falling stars, crashing planes, no wishing well ,just a coin robbers for hopeful fools, me upside down smile clown, the emotional walking dead, an anguish psychic, foreseeing tomorrows grief, no change of weather under this dark cloud of gloom, and it's rain that never stops, no ark ,but a kayak , this is when minutes turn 2 hours , and hours become days, soon days, turn in to weeks, and weeks become months, love has oppressed me, and before the world I scream, to be without means to die a thousand deaths, each day hollow forsaken ,isolated and deserted ,now it is only a whisper ,to an invisable audience ,and as desire riots ,my whole emotional uprise ,is shot down by reality soldiers