Pain Within my Soul

I sleep in silence as do the dead 
Wicked thoughts within my head 
My sinister heart and jokers smile 
Make those I love cringe while I walk the mile 
In my dreams the darkness stirs 
Filling a troubled mind with troubling words 
Notions evil that could bring a saint to sin 
I cannot control the pain within 
My soul not mine as it's been sold 
To demonic forces demonic hold 
In this pain I feel most at home 
To wander this world broken, alone 
Pierce this flesh with your dagger like words 
Watching peacefully the ending of my world 
Where do you linger my tormentor my dark love 
Are you demon of sorrow or sent from above 
Restless, Peaceful made of the night 
Haunted, Joyous in an eternal fight 
Between conscience and consequence I am stuck 
Will my day ever come? Or am I out of luck???