Parents

Parents

Parents have this funny way about them where they can take a day you are excited about from the moment you wake up and throw it all away in seconds

They argue the day is over

Parents should not have temper tantrums throwing away your excitement in a heartbeat

They are meant to grow wiser with age but instead, their maturity deteriorates
 
The number of times I've been at the door raring to go and boom! One too many comments and the whole day is over

I cannot comprehend how selfish one can be to throw away an entire day 

How can you get so upset from one comment one jokes

PTSD?

But you don’t tell us what that means so how am I meant to understand it

Know it limits what buttons not to press

I don’t get it and I don’t think I ever will

You said you would try hell you even swore

A few more months and I’m out the door

One last swing, One more wave and I'm gone

I have a new life waiting for me and I am spending the tail end of my high school career trapped inside with you

It isn’t fair

I miss out on seeing my friends before we start our journey to adulthood

Will I grow old the same way you did, fight the same demons, make the same mistakes

Surely I cannot.

Parents are examples in life and sometimes they show you how not to be

This is one of them

I will not ruin days, I will not yell and swear at my children

Spewing this on a page isn’t what today was meant to look like

We were meant to be happy, celebrating your birthday

I cannot understand how you let this happen

Does this happen at other people's homes? 

Do they have to deal with these same issues?

Treading on eggshells in case I say something that may be a “Trigger”

I don’t even know what that means
 
You don’t talk to us 
I don’t get it, I never will

- T.B