Perception of a false reality (paying homage to the great Maya Angelou)

All this doubt, all this disbelief, all this giving in is undaunting....

to not be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, to not be able to receive your annointing....

all this worry and disregard for the blessings bestowed upon you.....

all this weight that you'd rather carry alone then allow those who love you to see you through....

all this pain that you relish, all these walls that you build, blocking everyone out, no light, just darkness....

all this unbelievable sorrow, that you keep deep within, holding on to it while dreading what's in store tomorrow.....

through the tears your vision's blurry which in a sense, clouds your perception and becomes your reality that overtakes what's really real.....

perception now is your safe haven, your comfort zone, your imaginary definite maybe, where you feel things are as they're meant to be.....

no reasoning will surfice, for you feel that this is to be your life, and you shun away any positivity....

you give up and give in, when you think you can't win, there's no way there can ever be a happy ending....

there's no hope for me now, no way to reverse this frown, no happiness will ever overtake this heart.....

spare me the inspiration that you try hard to produce, spare me the hoop dreams and let me just play my part......

these things that you say, there's no way, no way, no way they can ever be my reality....

just let me continue to dwell in this self manufactured hell, that I have become so accustomed to calling my sanctuary.....

this story is known all to well by those who continue to tell, the sorrows that they feel are their life.....

no common explanation can surfice, or motivation from others, cause in their eyes, there's no hope and so all they can do is cry.....

though you try and try again to reassure, in the end...it's their perception that greatness is not in their favor....

you pick them up when they're down, and try to carry the load, all the while, knowing that down is where they are comfortable and favor......

the perception of life, can be seen through different eyes, in different ways, by different beings in different lights.....

your perception may truly be, very somber very bleak, yet to others it's the motivation to overcome the plithe.....