Pin drop of Silence

There is something about you that keeps me up the whole night, something that I fail to put into words.
Something so beautiful that my teardrops for you have become a symbol of how much you mean to me
Fearing be alone again, fearing to feel empty forever, fearing that you will never look back at me in a glimpse

What is the point being on cloud 9 feeling so high up in the sky when I still fall into my emotions and the traps of the Devil
Have not sold my soul to the Devil, but it feels like you were his blessing
Thorns on your head so deceitful I swear it felt like you were an angel

Dreams revolve around you, impossible to get you out my mind again 
Breaks me into pieces waking up from a beautiful nightmare about you
As that is the closest I will ever get to you
A nightmare so alarming but wish it is was never ending

I wake up and in reality you are probably in someone else’s arm as I write this tale about you
I come to the acceptance that you and I are not destined rather we look better together in my head
My imagination has now become my world, a world so isolating but rather keeps me safe from my daily sins

Here I am, all by myself again staring at the mirror as I am the only person I have
Whispers in my ears making me think about all the possibilities we could have had
Distracting myself in attempt to get away from you
Failing to realize you were my only distraction, what is my distraction now?

The only heaven I will receive is when I am with you
Without you I am already in Hell drugged up in my thoughts and burnt with my desires
Nowhere to escape, no tunnel for freedom, a pin drop of silence

- Shynal