Pregunta

Living a livid life
had a wife Worth dying for 
That is no more
Unsure if there is a shore for me anymore
Snorting Lexapro at Texaco
Why do I hold on so tight when I wish I could just let go
I guess I'm like the rest though
Nothing special
Simply forgettable
fucking despicable  
My memories have  tendencies to torment me
Especially when my memory remembers me 
Repulsive insults slip instantly it's embarrassing
cremate me creatively cover my corpse in kerosene

Roast marshmallows while you're caroling

Carol's caressing Karen's kitten in the kitchen
Naive natives breaking and exiting
There's no probable cause I'm existing
Resisting arrest comes naturally
Tragically I'm traumatized from all the times I looked in your eyes
Killing the third eye isometrically
twins fins intertwine identically

In search of serendipity 
Complaining about the complexity of life's trajectory
Definitely deserve what's meant for me
Do you?