Purgatory Ash

How long is my sentence in purgatory...when will the torture end? Though, even should I reach the point of freedom...purgatory is all I've known. Perhaps I am Meant to end the living hell to turn to one of spiritual cleansing? From flames comes that which is pure. Instead, the flames of this life have yet to make me pure. Ash has merely taken to the wind. Spreading like plague. Will I or when will my purgatory end?