Questions about life

I went to the store

seen a cold,
bald, old man.
Ran through my mind
I should ask him why
Is it better to try
To have a life
Rather than just die.
He seemed lonely 
I am just probably
Longing to realize
That there is still something to thrive on
Even if everyone shows they know this since they’re a child
But that’s something to deny
To have thoughts is prime.
After I said all this
The bald man came to me to verify 
That I am just out of my mind.