Rain Is Here

Hey, it's cold
The rain is here
It's running down your back
And I'm here alone
Under the stars
Drowning in things that I lack.
I lack your presence
Your every breath
The warm under your skin
I lack the smile 
that gives me chills
The one you hide within.
Hey it's cold
and you're not here 
To hold me while I sleep
My dreams have no color
They're black and white
My words are sad and cheap.
So here I sit, typing these words
that you will never see
Watching the clouds 
run through the sky
as seconds go by in which
 you still don't think about me.
I'm getting tired of all these lines
the ones you draw between us
I try my best not to cross them
But you know me well, I lust.
Hey it's cold
And where are you?
you're way too far away
I started counting a while ago
Now I've lost track of the days.
the days it's been 
Since ive felt your arms
The shelter that they provide 
though they were never mine to have
I stole them, yea I tried.
A red balloon has been following me
Not sure whose it is
when I look into my red reflection 
I see the distractions that are his.
His is you and I am me
but wait, what.. who is she?
I'm confused I really thought
That we were getting 
somewhere slowly.
hey whatever, doesn't matter
This has always been you
you and I could never last
We forever knew this to be true.
But Hey it's cold
It's raining again
Your back is no longer dry
and I'm here alone
Under the stars
Waiting for you to reply