ramblings

I cant seem to put
my finger upon it
so i'll just self medicate
and have another hit
ya left my heart here gaping
ripped it from its seams
if i smile its only faking
my mind constantly screams
now i got more drugs and money
than the will too live
to you, all this is funny
but ive got nothing left to give
how i hate my fucking life
always ruled by my heart strings
think id like to be a fish
i hear they dont have feelings...