Relentless solitude

I wished so desperately that someone would save me
There was a dark cloud of disparity draped over my reality
The only solace I could obtain was during my dreams 
My will to live was pleading 
I'd always been an outsider 
Looking in on their perfect packs 
Joking and laughing speaking a language I could recognize but not understand
Language of togetherness 
I'd never know a group I felt a part of. 
 Should I accept my solitude 
Or should I seek out my greatest desire 
One which I could never obtain 
Human connection 
I so perilously wished to be loved 
To connect the puzzle pieces revealing the roadmap to friendship. 
I'd never known true friendship