Remember

Whenever  I needed you, 
You were there.
Whenever I needed help, 
You would care. 
Whenever I felt lost,
You would guide me. 
When I needed you the most, 
You left me. 

So I try to forget. 
To rid myself of the pain. 
To rid myself of all the regret, 
Wishing I could return to the moment we first met, 
Trying to make myself sane. 

My sun, 
My torchlight, 
My beacon of hope. 
Where are you when I need you the most? 

Gone forever. 
Lost to the stars. 
Taken to a better place.
But that's one step too far

Away. I want to shout. 
I want to cry, 
I want to forget, 
I didn't want you to die. 

The sun without heat, 
A year without rain, 
A life with no love, 
Continuous pain. 
Grief. 

Losing someone.
Losing yourself. 
Needing happiness.
Needing help. 

And all of this is because I miss you.
Because it's becoming harder to picture your face. 
Because the memories begin to fade. 
Because I don't want to forget. 
I want to
Remember.