Running on Records

It’s warm outside, yet the leaves are always dying
And the seat you used to sit beside me is cold
I ran away from my future in my past 
Now there’s no escaping when time flies so fast 
Ive listened to the same song over and over again to feel every lyric 
To feel all the things I never got to say 
When will this song get old 
Like I’m running on a record 
Where do I fit into your life? 
You never answered my question…. 
You never answer my questions 
I’ll never answer my own questions 
Have I replaced you with him 
Hes nothing like you 
Yet me makes me feel alive 
I built you a thousand Egyptian pyramids 
You never lived to see any of them 
He builds me palaces
And I can’t help to travel far away in my mind
Am I a fraud 
Am I an imposter 
You used to post photos of your best friend 
I am forced to keep you at a distance 
But at least I never hurt you the way you hurt me 
You listen 
You obey 
When you are someone who is naturally rebellious. You are now someone I admire now that I see you happy 
I wish so hard to be in your happiness 
I want to run from you. I’m sad I didn’t see you today 
Today I run towards my future 
Wether you are in it is up to chance