Sat there

Sat there
Thoughts meditating to the voices in my head
Sat there
Thinking about everything
Thinking about how life is for me
Life is messed up
Life is a waste of time
Life for me is pointless
Sat there
Feelings of torment
Feelings of agony
Feelings of pain
All creep in at onces...
Overpowering all of my positve thoughts
Maybe those positve thoughts mean nothing
And its best for those adverse ones to conceal them
Leaving no clue of their existence 
Sat there
Thoughts meditating to the tune of my inner voices
Leaving a permanent scar
Leaving a visible mark
Sat there alone...
Crying...
Is it my fault
Am i in the wrong
Those feelings come and go regularly like a thought cycle
But ten times worse
Its killing me
Help me
Sat there Thinking
Sat there alone
Sat there Thoughts flying in and out of my ear..
Ahhhhhh!!!!!!
Its too much
Too much to cope with
Ahhh!!!!