Say No More.

I cannot believe this is really it, 
Never before have I taken such a blow, 
I've begged & I've pleaded, 
Never new I could stoop so low,
With all that has been said, 
You still refuse to budge, 
If I'd have known it would bring such pain,
I'd have steered away from love. 

I can't believe your coldness, 
The sharpness of your tongue, 
Who'd have guessed that way back then, 
You'd have turned out to be 
'the one'
I'm sorry you feel no love for me, 
Im sad you no longer see me for who I am, 
I'm simply trying to deal with this,
The only way I can. 

I'm sorry that I pushed you away, 
Now all you want from me is space? 
Time is up against me, 
Though I know it's not a race. 
I never imagined the day would come,
That we would part our ways,
Oh how I wish we could go back to the laughter days, 
I'm hurt that I no longer, 
Hold a place in your heart, 
You will never know the amount of pain,
I wouldn't know where to start. 

I love you Smiler, Gastro amounts 
That much has never changed, 
I'll always hold my hands up, 
That on this one I am to blame,
Although I get your reasons, 
For this I will never forgive, 
You looked me in the eyes & told me that a future we would live. 

I'll leave it on this note, 
I wish all the best to you, 
I will carry you in my heart, 
Believe that much is true, 
I'm sorry that you feel so strong, 
That this is it, 
I know I won't move on from this,
This I just can't forget. 
And why would I want to, 
Your the love of my life, 
It will always haunt me, 
I blew the chance to be your wife. 

I don't know how to end this, 
Because it's the last words we will exchange, 
I fill my face with tears, 
And hang my head in shame. 
I love you more than words could say, 
I will forever remain sorry, 
As I count to ten I say goodbye, 
A last goodbye from me.