Selena

EVERYDAY I PRAYED FOR YOU NOT KNOWING WHO YOU WERE...

I DESPERATELY ASKED GOD TO ANSWER MY PRAYERS...

I WENT ABOUT LIFE SEARCHING, YEARNING BUT NEVER FINDING LOVE...

AT TIMES I THOUGHT I HAD FOUND IT BUT THAT WAS NEVER SUCH...

I USED TO SAY TO MYSELF, WHERE COULD LOVE BE...

WHAT WOULD IT LOOK LIKE IF WE SHOULD EVER MEET...

THAT LOVE WAS ALWAYS AROUND ME BUT I WAS BLIND...

FOCUSED ON MY OWN IMAGES OF IT IN MY MIND...

I FINALLY ASKED GOD, WHY HAVEN'T YOU ANSWERED ME...

HE SAID I DID, YOU JUST NEVER OPENED YOUR EYES TO TRULY SEE...

AS HE ALLOWED ME TO GO THROUGH MY ERRORS AND FINALLY OPEN MY EYES...

THAT'S WHEN I REALIZED YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE ON MY SIDE...

IT PAINS ME TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING I PUT YOU THROUGH...

ALL THE HURT I CAUSED AND THE SPITEFUL THINGS I SAID TO YOU...

I LOVE YOU...

AND NOW THAT I KNOW WHAT DEFINES THE MEANING OF IT I KNOW IT'S TRUE...

BUT I ALSO KNOW IT COULD NEVER BE...

FOR I MESSED UP A BLESSING GOD GAVE TO ME...

IT TOOK ME SOME TIME TO EMBRACE THAT TRUTH...

UNDERSTANDING THAT IN MY LIFE AS A FRIEND I WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU...

I RATHER HAVE THAT THAN TO HAVE NOTHING AT ALL...

I JUST WISH GOD WOULD HELP ME TAKE BACK IT ALL...