SELF MODEL

...so who do I look up to now? Where is the model that I can emulate? I am almost an only child in a world that I only live in.
No blame game, just circumstances taking a swipe and I justice having a field day. How I wish life would go my way, having casts of gold that I only have to mould away...but No
I'm left in a forest and made to cut me a path to my dreams with no maps, no guides, no help. Bruises and years of pain bear me withness and unpardonable mistakes and regrets that need not speak a word.
I am no hero, with no model, just a surjourner and a stranger on a planet called Earth with one goal in mind-Survive today as well.