Shade of Blue

Shade of Blue

I hide it all behind a smile. Nobody knows, but all the while.

I’m in my own living hell. Slowly fading, yet no one can tell.

I need another point of view. I’m at a loss, what should I do.

Can’t outrun it, cannot hide. Impossible to see. It’s deep inside.

I harbor this pain, I know it’s true. Can’t seem to change my shade of blue.

Doc please tell me, will it go away. Can’t take anymore, at least not today.

Why can’t I shake it and just move on. I guess because it’s way too strong.

Its iron grip has a hold of me. It’ll never let go. Now I see.

Forever blue. Forever more. Locked behind this bolted door.

Stuck inside without the key. Can’t break out. It’s meant to be.

 I harbor this pain, I know it’s true. Can’t seem to change my shade of blue.

Doc please tell me, will it go away. Can’t take anymore, at least not today.

Lonely is a state of mind that chills me to the bone.

 I live, work, eat and sleep totally alone.

Has always been with me. It’s all I’ve ever known.

 I’m scared now, getting desperate. Don’t want to die alone.

 I’m near people, yet I’m alone. Always sad and the cause unknown.

It carries with it, shame and sorrow. With me today and will be tomorrow.

I harbor this pain, I know it’s true. Can’t seem to change my shade of blue.

Doc please tell me, will it go away. Can’t take anymore, at least not today.