She Ended my Naivety......My Rebirth

We were in love

Oh, the love friends could share

It was none like any other, too perfect, made for each other

got me putting a check on myself, asking myself questions

we were BFF's, or at least i meant  it to be that way

But i was a smiling fool with a gaping hole at my back

Oblivious to the continuous plunge of her blade, all but enjoying it, taking it with loyalty

She had made an accessory of me, adorning herself with her victory of my heart and simultaneous backstabbing

Oh, she sure was eating her cake and having it

She was my worst enemy and yet my other half, but i was innocent of this fact

Her smile made me happy, made me rest, assured that She, I, We were okay, the world was okay

Her tears made me bleed, certain all was wrong with the world, just wanting to end her pain

We were pillars to ourselves

And then I took of her mask

Palpitating in shock, the confusion in finally seeing, and the hurt in realization

This time her plunge was a direct hit, breaking my heart into little pieces, pieces that couldn't be healed

And she smiled again as she plunged again and again

Putting an end to my naivety

Tutoring me, making a professor of me, an authority on doubt, suspicion, mistrust and protection of my wounded heart

i would never again love so hard, trust so greatly, leave my heart so open and vulnerable

Her charming smile making me scared, suspicious, something not good was coming,

Her tears, oh her tears made my heart skip a beat in ecstasy, how i loved to see her hurt

Longed to drive a blade into her very essence, wanted to love the addiction of hurting her

Loving the erotic arousal and satisfaction i was awarded when she writhed in pain, even better when I'm its source

She had made a psychopath of me, a menace to all things love

She had made me an evil abyss with the hole she had created in my being, sucking in and ruining all blind as i once were

Tutoring them in turn as to what really was, shattering their innocence to save them and sending them back warriors

But no,i never saved them they way she saved me, i was merciful in my ways

She had turned my sweet soul into a suspicious one, my giddiness into fatigue, made me weary of the world, made me just want to be all alone, be my own best friend

She took away my innocence so early, took away my real self

We were meant to be BFF's but one sure thing she will be to me forever; The Apocalypse of my naivety.