Silence

Sedative like silence a welcomed invitation....
Swarmed upon by memories now an infestation......
Locked doors and black out curtains eerie need for self seclesion...
Smiling faces and helping hands are all but an illusion...
Cell phone left ringing social media left unread....
Drowning in the world outside my ship is now my bed...
Paranoia feeds me I have no need of drink or food...
I lay thirsting for answers to questions that hungrily intrude...
Tip toeing lightly in the safety of dark night ....
I mingle with the world carefully out of sight...
Armed with powerful  weaponds made from my own mind...
iv learned to survive this untrustable planet but im lonely knowing I'm the only of my kind...
Daylight is approaching back to the safety of my walls...
Back to circled paces tight chest breathing and clenching jaws...
Back to forgetting...
Back to sedative like silence in my head...
Back to my normal...
Back to my secluded ship and bed...