So Sorry

 I’m so sorry that I left you....
It took so long for you to even search for reasons why
Blurred by ever present tears with the inability to cry 
I’m sorry you ended up emotionless w uncontrollable bouts of looming sorrow...shifted faith no longer led by sight and you lost hope for better tomorrows
I’m so sorry for any hurt you’ve felt by my disregard and neglect by Proving you mean nothing not even worth the time for me to face to face give disrespect 
I can see now what Iv done all the pain and suffering I’ve caused 
How when the world tried to swallow me I pushed you instead into it’s chomping jaws
I see that I was wrong but I’m here now to make amends 
I’m sorry forced seclusion ordained internal voices that remain your only friends
I’m sorry that I took my time ...honestly I can’t continue I never attempted looking back 
Loneliness is your living hell and empathy is what I lack 
I know what I did to you 
iv enjoyed watching you struggle all along 
Your hopeless cries for mercy will always remain my favorite song
Now your getting the picture you still sit where you were sat 
undeserving little victim I hand picked to be my human mat
Your pain is my hallway I stomp your heart like corridors disrespect for your entry way I enter just like I would any other whores 
I reluctantly take credit for Unintentional lessons taught on how to cope I aimed to stringing your life along like a feening whore on dope
Distortion for my pleasure daily goals achieved by me 
my only regret is all the pain I caused and didn’t get to see