Sin

Jan 31. 2018 @ 7:24am

Sipping on some wine as I close my eyes to think of him, dear Lord please help me because I’m about to commit a sin. 

At first it started with a smile a rose and then a hello, the smell of his cologne was delicious I didn’t want to see him go. 

I fell in love with his smile, his charms the ways of his expressions, he makesde me laugh and he knows what I need then slowly he started with these obsessions. 

It was a smack a slap but then it went to punches, when he realized what he was doing he would calm down with flowers and launches. 

I’ve tried to talk to him to see if he would change his ways, I’m afraid of bad things happening if I were to stay. 

I keep thinking of how he makes love his touch and his handsome face, to thinking about his kisses his lips just makes my heart race. 

Don’t get me wrong yes he loves me in his crazy ways, but I’m tired of getting abused his accusations and I’m afraid to stay. 

I try not to get him angry when he’s in his crazy moods, I cook I clean pay bills and even take him some foods. 

If I go tell or ask for help from anyone he will know, so when we are in public I try not to let my pain show. 

Sipping on this wine as the day winds down I take a knife to bed, I don’t wanna do this Lord cause if I stay I’m afraid what will lay ahead. 

Lord please give me the strength for it’s jail time I will face and I don’t know what to do, but if he starts his abuse I’m sending him to you. 
JuaniDiaz2018