Slightly Suicidal

Sometimes,

When I take a bath,

I stay under for as long as possible

When hiking,

I sit closer to the edge of cliffs

When I have a headache,

I take more than the recommended dosage of pain meds.

I’m more careless when cutting food.

I distance myself more.

I force smiles.

I pretend

I lie

“I’m fine.”

Again

And again.

Why?

Maybe its because

I’m

Slightly Suicidal.