So Alone

I can no longer take the pain that's hiding so deep within my heart, 
No family or friends feeling so lost deep inside that it's tearing me apart,
Longing for a life that I will never have and dreams that won't come true,
Walking tall and pretending to be strong is just to much I believe that I am through, 
Trying to live right and be real with the fact that I will always walk alone,
Inside this hell that I live each day in a place that's suppose to be called my home, 
What did i do to deserve this life why are all my prayers ignored,
I've prayed so much and it seems as if in the  overlooked pile is where those prayers they have been stored,
Be patient they say and keep your faith for your blessings they will come, 
Yet I'm all out of strength none left to give and with this life i feel to be done,
Never been one to just give up and keep pushing for the light, 
However it's been so long and I'm weakend now I can no longer continue to fight,
Yet I awake each day hoping it will change thinking that it could,
Yet it stays the same and the pain is real I know now that it never would,
So think what you want and judge if you may yet my life you do not live,
I have given all that I got to the point that there is nothing left for me to give, 
                          David Stafford.     PS ... Not a suicide note just getting emotions out through my writing. These days seems to be all that I have left.