So Sad

Bang that drum of self disgust
Shout it to the stars
if you feel you must
Whip your skin
so it's bleeding and raw
Keep on till can stand no more
Though not yet suffered to deserving
masochistic shame and guilt persevering
No comfort or reprieve in twisted thinking
tied all worth to Titanic sinking
Where's boat to rescue soul lost and cold?
bring back in to the humanity fold
Too much kindness in this asking
leave to lower than a worm a basking
In the distance, voice a calling
just ignore only the inevitable stalling
Sunk below waves of hope too late
your final need accepting your expected fate 

Just So Sad