sometimes

The tears roll down my sleepy eyes

I don't know if it was from the a coking or the smiles.

people just want let me ride.

seems like I been going thought this for a while.

My heart wants to stop, but all I can do is jump.

The cold wants to stay but you not welcome here any way.

the joy wants to stay and there is more today.

my situation was enrage and it drove me to engage in things I did not want to.

my mind was sometimes in a daze because I wanted things to be okay.

often confuse, and was trying to play by the rules, but nobody plays fair.

although, consistency was there, I often failed, but I didn't fall.

My body ace from the pain sake,

my head got dizzy from all those mixed feelings.

my shoulders tighten from all the frighten billing.

and my back stiffing from all that thrilling.

and my soul,they set for killing,

boy what a mess,

I really needed to rest.

I needed to relax and breath.

so I would dream of a vacation that I need.

a place where I can smile and be free.

somewhere far,from the sea, where I was sweller up like a glove.

and they made them self above.

a place where I can call home, and not be alone.

a peace so strong, that it feels like heavens love.

a time for feasting without ceasing

and a heart for no lies and grieving.

so in this place there is no leaving,

so I keep on believing.

striving for something achieving,

tho they slay me, I will serve the lord forever and ever.

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