Sorry to Myself

Hey you, I'm sorry that I let you. 
down.
And for letting you endure so much pain. 
Not picking you up off the ground every time you've been knocked down.
All the tears that have fallen from your eyes,
The days and nights you wished to die.
Brokenness deep inside,
for telling you so many believable lies.
Watching you, watching yourself,
Saying, "This is all your fault somehow."
I'm the reason that you've let me down.
This will come to an end.
Start to yell,
Then scream,
Finally, just breathe.
Soon to be old memories, I will make you see.
Your eyes may start to fill with tears,
As I say to you, "It's okay to feel what you feel right now."
I write these words to you:
For you are I, and I am you.
I will begin to love myself once more.
Let go of self-doubt,
Forgive the ones who have let me down.
Just not to have them back around.
I'm moving on from my past.
Time just keeps going by way too fast.
My little one will only ever see me at my best.
I finally got what I've always wanted in life.
Having my little one in my life while rediscovering who I am once more.