In a state of the unknown

As I remain calm
with no urge to ask why
I then release the pain, the fear and the tears
Straight from my eyes,
while the situation unfolds
something else takes control
and grants me peace inside my soul
in a state of the unknown,
yet an still I press foward
but it keeps pushing me back
and although my mind is saying revenge
my gut tells me not to react
just sit back and let GOD take care of that,
now I sit here fighting my demons
knowing damn well I have every motherfucking reason
cause I have to live with the pain
he wont deal with the grieving,
fuck it, I'm out, man I'm leaving,
thats when I "woke up" opened my eyes
and realized I was dreaming,
inside this reality that I'm seeing
My life has to have a more purposeful meaning
Cause I have faith in GOD
And it is he who I believe in
So in this world I roam
I AM never on my own
I AM never alone
Are you saying this whole time
I've been guided IN A STATE OF THE UNKOWN?