Stayed to Long, Left to Soon

I loved her with words and eyes and breath and all that was everlasting. There in her silence confined by her dread. Lingering in her fear of loneliness or so I thought. She didn’t mind the empty space my absence afforded.  she simply didn’t trust herself. More afraid of what she might or might not do. I was her stalwart knight and nothing more. I was led to believe my love penetrated and embraced her. I was merely a person whom she felt she would have to answer to. I was the reality check she wanted, to snap her out of her looping thoughts that pervaded straight to the core. I walked away unsure of my decision. My love for her kept me there far to long. Long after my purpose. Long enough to know that i mattered more to me. I wasn’t a crutch she wasn’t broken. Now when i look back I wish she was still alive, my departure nailed her coffin.