Step 1

My mind was lost and   
    my body violated
I was lost in the dark as
   the demons just waited
Then a child..a bringer of
    joy and lite
B-cuz of her a future was
    now in site
A love that hurt me to
  the core
Damn! This life has left
     me sore
My heart was broken,
  my soul was shattered
None of it now seems to
    matter
My addiction took me 
​​​​​​from the ones I hold dear
Death so close, how am I
  still here?
Seasons change and life
  goes on
Can I truly be forgiven for
   all my wrong
What do I want from this
      life?
I know this..I don't wanna
         fite
Not man, not law, not
      even my feelings
Now is the time to allow
   my healings
Left now rockin & shakin
  with or without meds
What's really happening
   inside my head?
A mental ward they just
     call a rehab
Where we talk about all
     we once had
The counselors, the groups all show me a way
To save my life, all I need
    is to say..
"I am Powerless & now
     I Surrender
My life is Chaos &  
  completely Unmanageable"
Help I received for my
    racing thoughts
No longer do I crave just
      one more shot
My addiction I must fite
      every day
But my life is worth it in
       every way