Stupidity Leads to Wonderful or Terrible Things

For the first time
I'm genuinely terrified of losing someone
I've so stupidly let in.

I know i write
morbid tales of abandonment and misery,
but I can't even come close
to imagining how much it would hurt
if you just up'd and walked away.

I've never met someone
who can unknowingly shred and tear apart
the walls that have never even been chipped.

And what bothers me the most
is the fact that even I don't know what it is
that's so damn special about you.

How you could just say a simple thing like,
"you're so cute,"
and even the biggest problems
seem like ant hills.

Or you could say something like,
"I love you,"

And I swear I feel as if I can cure cancer
and create peace around the world.