Suicide Letters

I am sorry that I failed you

I am sorry it wasnt enough

i am even sorry that im crying right now and look weak

I am sorry I make you so mad that you scream and yell

I am sorry for how stressed I am that I get head aches so bad they make me nautious 

i wish i wasnt like this, I want it to be okay.

ive thought about leaving this world next year, next month, next week, and even today.

My head is so heavy I can hardly move

I am willing to leave it all behind.

Maybe then Ill be happy.