Supressed Sadness

I keep telling myself I'll be okay 
But late at night the tears still fall
Everyone seems to need my strength
So I give them my all

I make up excuses 
For the hurt in my heart
Saying it;s silly
When I fall apart

But the reason and denial
Can't erase this pain
This smile on my face
Would wash off in the rain

Yet I keep on trying 
I have to be strong
Cause letting it out
Just seems so wrong

Making others see my hurt
When they're so in the dark
I'll face this pain alone 
And accept it's icy mark

I'll protect those that I can
From the pain inside my soul
But every day that I pretend
I fall deeper in this hole

I'mm running and hiding 
Pretending it's not there
But when I turn around
It'd dead eyes seem to stare

Misery and hurt
A fog around my mind
Yet I pretend to have escapred
What I always find

And so I'll just keep running and hiding....