Surrender

I stare down the void,
Surrender it all,
Let me fall and watch me burn,
You broke me to pieces,
Too many times,
Its too late now,
You cant break a broken heart,
Dont run back to me,
Dont show me that fake smile,
Dont think I still love you,
I didn't know how much I cared,
Until you decided she was better,
If you were sick of me,
Say it,
Dont let her tell me,
Out of pity,
What are we anymore,
You hurt me so much,
I'm numb to it all.

You took your time to slowly ruin me,
Its my turn now,
I'll break you slowly,
Hear the sound of your heart breaking,
Watching your tears fall,
Your cries will lift me up,
Watch you lose what you once valued.

I can't hope for much,
I just want the tears to dry up,
Make the pain go away,
Please I beg you,
Don't turn back now,
You made it this far,
Just break me a little more,
So I can make it go away,
And finally the cracks can be sealed away,
Shut off from the world,
Fix the broken,
But let me go,
Please just accept my surrender.

You can only fake it so far,
I made it to my end,
Now let it be peaceful,
That fake smile I'm never sick of seeing,
That stupid lie I never thought would hurt,
I'm sorry it meant nothing,
I'll say it too,
Don't take it to heart,
I never want to hear it from her again,
If you dont want me,
Tell me,
If you want to kick me,
Kick me,
If you want to say sorry,
Save it for another day,
When we can meet again with better circumstances.

Dont make me suffer,
Just let me fall,
Surrender my heart,
Jump into the void,
Let me smile,
I'll never cry,
Just let me go,
Please can I die?