Survive

Am I alone, in this world.
Blighted by my shadow, is it safe to let you in?
I see you next to me, but do you see me with you?
But I would rather be alone then let you in
It's dark in here, and I've lost my torch
Once a bright, lively flame,
Smothered by the tears shed in solitare
It slowly, faded into ash.
And in the ash grew a dark and bitter light
One not of love but of pain
A light that fed not on happiness, but rather on
Despair
Broken dreams
Shattered memories
Why then must I carry such burden,
Am I not deserving of love or of joy

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Gray clouds and foggy windows,
Slowly seep into my mind
Sowing the seed of doubt 
A seed that would go on to grow into a tree of hope
Because no mater how many people said you can't
Because no mater how many people said you won't
Because no mater how many people said stop
You said no.
You said no, to the nay sayers,
Despite all the agony
Despite all the lonliness
You held onto hope.
And your hope is more powerful that anything
Hope will never betray you
Hope will never turn its back on you
Hope is how we pull through despite how things may see
I know how hard life gets
I've been where you are right now
I've lost  hope,
I've lost my will to fight
I've lost friends
I've lost loved ones
I've lost myself.
There were times I thought of quiting.
Times that I wanted to give up, throw in the towel
But hope was always there for me,  even if I couldn't see it.
If you lose hope, all you need to do is find it again
Because no mater how bad it gets.
As long as you have hope.
Then you have a chance.
Stay Alive.