That Thing

Do you know
that thing
your in
when you
get blind sided
by all the 
problems
of the world
at one time

It is that thing
a state
maybe in a sense
of Apathy
but a better
description
is the feeling
of not
giving a fuck
but in reality
you
do
as your mind
is constantly
spinning
how to get
out of the jam
your in

Part of me
wants
to get
drunk
and just
forget
Yet
in reality
I never do
this
as I know
that thing
will be staring
at me
even
harder
when I awake

There is an
answer
there is a solution
I am going
to trouble shoot
my way
out
of this