The 4 letter word

The four letter word,  i vowed to never say, ,  i decided to say it to you today.i had kept it bottled up with the lide on tight. Waiting to tell you when the time was right.. The look on yoyr face told me i had made the wrong choice.. I shoukd of listened to my inner voice.i must bottle it back up,  put it back in my safe place..  I cant let him see the disapointment on my face...