The Darkness

It surrounds you every time your eyes close.
It touches you in your most venerable places.
It lurks under the blankets waiting to engulf your every inch.
It squeezes out that last shaky breath.
It’s that one last kiss that invites them inside.
It’s the toxic thoughts at 2am and at 2pm.
It wakes you in a cold sweat at the dead of night.
It’s when no means yes and yes means yes.
It smothers you in sobs under the midday sun.
It’s the comfort found in the little white lines.
It’s staring at your reflection in the toilet water.
It’s trying to drown yourself in tears.
It’s playing with the trigger hoping for an accident.
It’s looking for yourself under the sheets.
In the arms of another.
It’s the comfortable numbness.
That makes you feel everything.
And nothing all at once.
It’s the darkness.