The disillusionment of a reflecting adult

Want to learn but don't want to be taught
Want to be rich but don't want to be bought
Want to live but don't want to die
Want to feel but don't want to cry
Want to listen but don't want to hear
Want to be scared but don't want to fear
Want to stand up but don't want to be cut down
Want to be funny but don't want to be a clown
Want to achieve but dont want to commit
Want to relax but don't want to sit
Want to engage but don't want to bore
Want to fuck but don't want to whore
Want to jump but don't want to look
Want to eat but don't want to cook
Want to escape don't know how to be free
Want to be accepted but don't want to be me
Wanted to be grown up when I was a kid
But now that I am older I wish I never did