The dream

All my life that's missing 
I feel no longer free
With each prediction I remember
My heart starts skipping beats
I feel a fear each time I pair
A coincidence or notion
Although not whole 
If I take control I hope to feel less broken 
Untold despair 
I must compare the feeling from my dream
The fawn had felt
Could crush the belt
The universe conceived
The coldest soul of treacherous mold poisoned ripping open 
An hour glass of terror clashed where storms had turned furosiius
Shadows cast on remnants masked where jealousy unfolded
A rooted path that caved in fast as novelty exploded
The mess that's left
I must confess 
If flooded by an ocean
Could not wash clean the horror of streams
My mind has been exposed to
Despite what's lost 
The release cost
The time my children need
Your indirect 
Cause if effect
That sabotage had weaved