Poem - 28 March 2018, 17:12

The dying man

I am dying and no one cares, I am dying slowly one piece at a time, dying is not the worse part it is the regret that consumes me, regret for so many things left unsaid, who is to blame who is my anger to be confined to is there someone to let loose my anger my hate my distaste towards I'm not positive I know and if I did would I know would it be right of me to unleash such a powerful emotion onto that person, I know laying here in this bed with all of these wires an hoses coming in an out of my body listening to the sounds of these machines breathing for me, I watch people moving about I hear there voices but there words are not ment for me there only about me, I wait for death these days some days I don't even realize there was a day, I'm to young to die, I'm to old to live.

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Dean Kuch28 March 2018, 18:01

In the immortal words of the metal band, Metallica:

I can’t remember anything
Can’t tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside I feel the scream
This terrible silence stops me

Now that this life is through with me
I’m waking up, I cannot see
That there’s not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please, God, wake me

Back in the womb it’s much too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But can’t look forward to reveal
Look to the time when I’ll live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please, God, wake me

Now the world is gone, I’m just one
Oh God, help me Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please, God, help me

Darkness
Imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

Illness
Has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my soul
Left me with life in hell

With a couple of minor alterations due to content's sake, Willaim.
Who DO we blame when we fall ill?
God?
The Devil himself?
Or, can some of the blame rest squarely on our own shoulders?
I suffer from Congestive Heart Disease.
My heart pumps at just 19% the capacity of a healthy human heart.
I'm prone to blood clotting due to the poor blood flow.
Who do I blame?
I blame myself...
~Dean Kuch

William Ellis28 March 2018, 18:22

I suffer from blood clots myself who do I blame at the time no one the myself then god then finally the universe.

Dean Kuch28 March 2018, 18:25

Oh, okay then... ☠️

sparrowsong28 March 2018, 18:11

Hello William...

Welcome to Cosmo!

I often wondered what goes through the mind...

My brother was in a coma for almost 24 hours hooked up to every machine possible and as much as I wanted him not to die he wouldn't have wanted to live with the effects...

He was 34 years old and it My Mother's heart finished breaking...

She and my Dad passed away in the 14th year of his anniversary of his death...

Great write!

Thank you for sharing...

Hugs...

sparrowsong

William Ellis28 March 2018, 18:25

I'm happy that my writing helped some to be honest one morning I just started typing words into my iPad and that's what came out. I keep hoping it happens again