the fight...

so many thoughts within 
so much hurt & pain
clearing my head an goes straight to the brian
visions that come so clear as day 
hoping to god theyd jus go away
being strong is like a curse
cause no one sees me at my worse 
putting a smile showing im fine 
but deep in my soul he shows me a sighn 
inside im crying fighting back my tears 
praying to him to overcome my fears
i wana let go an be told its ok 
but all i see darkness pulling me astray
hearing new promises an words that are given broken lies
2 those must be forgiven 
my lifes like a puzzle and i will mend back the peaces 
but the new outlook on life hope
keeps on decreasing ive lost who i am
because of my past 
but this time around it will b my last
im a beautiful woman who deserves the best 
taken  a new journey i shall begin my quest......