The First Mistake

You could of got me to read a book or sing some notes in the bedroom.
Like, for all I know, them pills you took could of made a mess of you.
All I thought was im interested and now im obsessed with you.
Like, man you couldve made me beg for you.
Id do anything to bring you back.
Cause I cant even damn message you!
Deadset, im in the crest, im progressing through.
All the tense and tests that you.
Failed because depression got the best of you.
Have you got the preys ive sent to you?
All them memories have fallen now, all I want to see is your face.
I keep trying to call, man, I miss you more and more every day.
Everywhere I look reminds me of all the memories that fall in place.
Why do I keep calling when youve fallen into this grave.
I love you, damn, why am I experiencing more of this pain.
Its unfortunate, but all you can say is truly, its life.
You gave me that advice, look, im trying to be nice.
You were taken away from me, why didnt you fight.
Its like you surrendered so easily, was it all a lie?
That you didnt want to be with me, didnt want to survive.
Didnt want to see my face?
Is that it?
Did I do you so wrong that nothing ever mattered?
So you proved your long gone, it true you fall through all your passages?
No exit to the path unless you wanted to shoot and get splattered.
Is there hell down there, or is there just blackness?