The Hate of my Heart

I watch you, sneering in my face,
Let myself run this endless race,
I look your face in my eyes
And listen.

I see you laugh, I watch you smile,
Feel you pushing ruthlessly,
My heart descending worthlessly,
Into a pit of bile.
This is how I live.
With you, ever in my eyes,
How can you see with me in your eyes?

Oh, black fire boiling beside me, inside me,
Bubbling ever away.
Never do I see the light of day
For the fire consumes me
My mind
My soul
With you, my eyes.

All my mind sees, your face,
My heart, my hate, 
My ears, your laugh,
My eyes... the floor.
And my skin knows your beating fist
As I lay on the floor you made
Just for me.
Just close the door.