The Mask of a Ghostly Past

In my mind there's a war,
Between my authentic self,

And who I pretended I was before, 

I don't know why she's here,

She never really existed,

She was born out of fear, 

She's only a mask,

Fused to my flesh,

Removing and killing her is my true task, 

Except she was never me,

You fell in love with the man,

That I was always meant to be, 

It wasn't a trick,

You weren't lied to or duped,

When she's here I feel sick, 

I'm not running away,

The only thing I really know,

Is that I want me to stay, 

Please I'm telling you that I know,

I'm so wildly in love with you,

You and I need ME to stay and her to go.