The one I left behind

The one I left behind 

they say she was murdered
the spirit in the sky says she was a heroin addict
she was a night walker in the abyss
Is it a practical joke
I am not medium, I am a spirit walker
I know you're alive and I love you
I don't care who you've become
Did gomez ever freak out on Morticia?
were they ever scared of the things that go bump in the night

a decade ago in the summer of 2009
she had her halo, years down the road
her halo came to me
I went back to my home town
I saw her halo at the flower shop
I fell to my knees and cried out for her
I bought her flowers and I threw them on the floor
I yelled out in an outcry at my father
"is she dead or is every one lying to me"
The way she loved me was out of this world
something from a fairy tale without the happily ever after

I wanted to bring her back and I did
Many admired her and worshiped the ground she walked on 
but I on the other hand went back to my home town to lead her soul across the river
to help her ascend, now she has a home for us, 
all we've ever wanted and a business or two or three
I heard a voice from across town "I'm Gloria",.
when I got there she said "you're mine",

I backed off ever so slightly and she attacked with a bombardment barrage of insults
I stayed callm and wrote her a sad meditative song that brought her peace of mind
I proved my love was real, I just wanted her to relax, my fathers tears fell from his eyes

I caught her off guard, I did say, expect the unexpected
meanwhile another Gloria was connected to me through poetry
The poetry set us apart, than another through a song
I was singing inside my mind
and another than another than another and one other...
and they all were jealous of each other
One calling one a slut, one calling one a hoe

why can't women lift each other up
stand by their man and be bold
so many  predators and not enough justice
Why can't they make each other feel beautiful
I believe every woman should look in the mirror every day and say "you are beautiful, you do deserve to be loved by the one who is there when you need him the most, and not there when you need him the least

One who keeps you safe and secure yet feeling fancy free

Last time I saw her. it was christmas eve evening of 2018
If I would of known then what I know now
I would of told her "you better get your but up here, I can't let you slip away from me this time or there will be hell to pay
If she's alive I wish she was here right now
If she died than I have to move on
My gut feeling tells me she lied, they all lied to me
Made me weep and bleed before the lord
his daughter said she loves me but didn't show it
all the kings and queens are the lords kingship
sons and daughters, don't lose your halo, don't lose your grip on reality
if you do there will be one like me as I am for her
who will lay it all out on the line and risk everything t6o save you

I couldn't help but think to myself
that time has been standing still
I'm getting used to the pain I feel
It's the only thing that lets me know I'm alive
I am not expendable... I have needs and wants 

come see me... I asked for love not war
come see me... I asked for sunshine not a storm
a rainbow comes after the rain
The best is yet to come
Is there anyone alive out there
Is there someone out there for me
You say you love me. well stand by your man
I love it when your a sweetheart
Am I a spirit walker.... women have been murdered
missing in actiion, mothers weeping by the phone