The one that got away

you dug your beliefs into my flesh and soul
you made me thank you for the very things you stole
stripped me of my friends, “they wish only our demise” 
oh how i should have known, this was merely a disguise
i started to push away everyone that cared 
under your mischievous smile, I was weak and scared
now it is too late, there’s no going back home
I am always with you, but your heart’s made of stone. 
when i try to kiss you, i'm struck by your cold gaze
what happened, my love, you used to light me ablaze
i’m frozen as i realize: i must let go of you 
for months I had ignored, what I long knew was true 
but i must say, no more, for my tired heart’s crumbling 
you love me no more, and now through life I’m stumbling 
however so, my love, i shall never look back 
i’ll never fall again for your beautiful attack 
your love might have existed, but it has been too rude 
and i deserve much more than a boy who is so crude
i don’t know where i’m going, perhaps i never did
but i’ll get far from you, so my soul can be healed
i’ll find my path one day, again, and I shall not blame fate
it’s been a bumpy road, and I’m getting rid of dead weight.