The passing of a loved one.

You spend your whole life getting to know your loved ones.
You think they'll be around for ever untill that day there not.
You don't know why or even when.
The day the dark cloud comes through.
The end of the line, the end of days.
You though would never happen. But how could it.
The one you loved, your whole life, the one family members who ment the world to you.
The day they take their last breath.
Hopefully with out pain and suffering. But that's not always true.
One final breath, then they exhale.
Pass away into nothingness, their body goes limp, no signs of life.
The body, deteriorating, now just a pile rotting flesh.
When you finally hear, your loved one passed.
im not going to lie, it's gonna be the worst day of your life.
You'll be engulfed with sorrow, you won't know what to do.
You start with a tear, nope that's not all.
The pain you feel is so devistated, you hope it won't last.
Your heart betting a million times a min, like it's being ripped from your chest.
Your over come with misery, but it's just the beginning.
You plead with God, why this have to happen.
Your pain then turns into anger.
Then a fall down the dark hole, to a bottomless abyss
Depression takes over, your no longer in control.
You just want it to stop.
Its not really real, it can't be real.
You become so numb, that you seek pain to know your alive. A pinch, a slap, just want to bash your head.
They tell you, they lived a good long life, you should be glad for that.
I say fuck you, I'm selfish, I want them back.
As time passes, your tears add up.
It started with one, now to vast to count.
Your a man and men don't have feelings.
Who told as a child big boys Don't cry.
You have to hold it to together,  you must be strong. 
Bury your feelings, don't show your pain.
Hopefully you get the chance to say good-bye to your loved one.
You try to hold on to the good times, the memories of once was.
The worst is when you see them suffer and slowly decline. 
Thoes memories will always last, like a dark cloud haunting you until you until you die.
It will always  effect you, all your life.
For your just a shell of your once former self.
Good bye, I love you Grandma!!!
Rest In Peace…….
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